Thoughts

I have been thinking a lot today about life and what part I am to play in it. I have so many thoughts going through my mind everyday, some I forget about after awhile, but others that stay. These are the ones which I dwell on and strive so hard to find answers to. One thing that stays on my mind is how I have been hurt so many times by people that I loved or cared deeply about and those scars remain. I am afraid to trust again after being lied to, betrayed, and stabbed in the back, but I have an emptiness deep inside of me that yearns to be filled. I was married for 20 years and loved the family life and the role that I played in it. Now I am alone and desire to have that again, but my fears and regrets stop me. I would love to have someone here for me who would love me unconditionally, be faithful, caring, supportive and just to be there for me. This is just a scratch on the surface of how I feel about this and wont go on into more details, but I would like a change.